My Mali Bella:
In 2009, I gave birth to my second child, another beautiful baby girl, named Mali Bella. When I took her home, a friend suggested that we consider getting a baby wrap or carrier, since we had another child. We spent time researching and ended up choosing a very popular name brand baby wrap. I used it a few times, until the last day that I used it. I took Mali out of the wrap to find her unconscious and blue, I immediately started CPR. She ended up spending 2.5 weeks in the hospital fighting for her life. The cradle position called out by the wrap company, caused her chin to press against her chest, cutting off her airway. It only took a few short minutes to cause severe brain damage. We begged, pleaded, and cried but nothing was going to bring her back, she was lifeless.....on August 27, 2009 our baby girl joined the angels in heaven. The pain is as fresh as it was the day I lost her. But, over ,the years I have learned to move forward, not move on. An experience like this becomes a part of you, and it forever effects your life. I have learned to live life to the fullest, in her honor.
Hearts from Mali story:
After Mali passed away, I would dream about her, smell her sweet baby breath throughout the day. I was struggling over her loss. After some time, I opened my heart & mind. I started talking to Mali, I began to ask her to give me some sort of sign that she is around us. Slowly, I started noticing hearts appearing in some shape or form.....One day, Téa & I were painting nails and as I am thinking of her wishing she could be here with us right now, Téa spilled some of the nail polish remover and it formed a perfect heart. Another time we were at the beach with our son Taj, I was just enjoying the moment with him and then I started thinking about Mali, I looked down to see the tiniest piece of sand in the shape of a heart on his hand. There are countless stories like these ones. Our little angel Mali is always around us sending us love & comfort through her hearts. She will always live in my heart, and a piece of my heart will always be with her.
**Please be careful with baby wraps, I learned so much information about wraps/carriers afterwards that I wish I had known before. In 2009, the count of infant deaths due to baby carriers was over a dozen.